For some reason I've had to keep repeating these words to myself as I showered and got dressed for the day. I think it has something to do with the fact that Brigette's house reminds me of my family's beach house in Reedville, Virginia.
No, that's not right. I keep slipping there, too. They are not my family anymore. I cut them off in one of those it's-either-them-or-me moments that seems overly dramatic in the moment but after only settles into a cold reality.
But still Brigette's house reminds me of theirs and I keep finding myself thinking about what would life be like if I could reconnect with them. Truth be told, I have had many of these moments over the past few months, normally where water is concerned. I'm not really certain whether it is really the Cridlin family I miss or just that little beach house in Reedville.
Either way it doesn't really matter much. I'm too old to believe in happy endings and too disillusioned to believe that people are capable of change.
"This is life."
I tell myself this as I open my door and go to join everyone else at the breakfast table. I have a feeling this will be my mantra for the day.
No, that's not right. I keep slipping there, too. They are not my family anymore. I cut them off in one of those it's-either-them-or-me moments that seems overly dramatic in the moment but after only settles into a cold reality.
But still Brigette's house reminds me of theirs and I keep finding myself thinking about what would life be like if I could reconnect with them. Truth be told, I have had many of these moments over the past few months, normally where water is concerned. I'm not really certain whether it is really the Cridlin family I miss or just that little beach house in Reedville.
Either way it doesn't really matter much. I'm too old to believe in happy endings and too disillusioned to believe that people are capable of change.
"This is life."
I tell myself this as I open my door and go to join everyone else at the breakfast table. I have a feeling this will be my mantra for the day.
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