We all have a special place that we go to unwind or seek clarity. For me this place is normally the shower. I turn the water on, close my eyes, and envision the negativity of the day washed down the drain. It's only then that I can think - think without the constraints of reality or the fear that I may be wrong.
I think of many things in the shower. Things I have to do that day, things I will have to do in the future, or things I've already finished.
This morning after eating my breakfast yogurt and brushing my teeth, I stepped into my tiny dorm shower and began the process of readying myself to face the day. Somewhere between the shampoo and the exfoliating facial wash I began to think about everything. My reticence in class. The fact that I'm still scared to actually speak. The fear that I will walk away from this still being unable to form an intelligible sentence.
This went on until I couldn't stand it anymore and my facial wash started to wash into my eyes. Enough of this, time to change.
I'm tired of holding on to all this negativity, so I let it all go down the drain.
In a few minutes it will be time to go catch the tram. Just like every other Thursday. Only today when I'm in class today I'm going to start trying harder.
Nothing changes unless we decide to change it, and I'm ready for a change.
I think of many things in the shower. Things I have to do that day, things I will have to do in the future, or things I've already finished.
This morning after eating my breakfast yogurt and brushing my teeth, I stepped into my tiny dorm shower and began the process of readying myself to face the day. Somewhere between the shampoo and the exfoliating facial wash I began to think about everything. My reticence in class. The fact that I'm still scared to actually speak. The fear that I will walk away from this still being unable to form an intelligible sentence.
This went on until I couldn't stand it anymore and my facial wash started to wash into my eyes. Enough of this, time to change.
I'm tired of holding on to all this negativity, so I let it all go down the drain.
In a few minutes it will be time to go catch the tram. Just like every other Thursday. Only today when I'm in class today I'm going to start trying harder.
Nothing changes unless we decide to change it, and I'm ready for a change.
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