I've never been one to make friends quickly and I'm not what you would call a social butterfly. No, I am something else entirely. I find my place in the corners of parties, glass in hand and arms crossed. Silent.
This is my way.
It hasn't gone unnoticed. Thursday during an impromptu choclat viennois at Le Molière with Melody and Sharon we were joined by others. Immediately the conversation switched from English to French and almost as quickly, I fell into silence. It wasn't until much later that my reticence was brought up again and noted. And really, what defense is there?
I don't really like to talk around people I don't know. I prefer to listen to others speak. I don't want to speak badly. All true, all hollow.
I like to think I'm beginning to change this though. I'm getting out a little more, going a little further out of my comfort zones. I have a feeling that it will take some time for me to get past these fears, these tendencies. I'm not even sure if I'll manage to fully break through during my short stay in France. This could take years. But I've begun.
I've begun the slow process of unraveling myself and taking inventory of the knots. Here is one and I will call it hesitancy.
This is my way.
It hasn't gone unnoticed. Thursday during an impromptu choclat viennois at Le Molière with Melody and Sharon we were joined by others. Immediately the conversation switched from English to French and almost as quickly, I fell into silence. It wasn't until much later that my reticence was brought up again and noted. And really, what defense is there?
I don't really like to talk around people I don't know. I prefer to listen to others speak. I don't want to speak badly. All true, all hollow.
I like to think I'm beginning to change this though. I'm getting out a little more, going a little further out of my comfort zones. I have a feeling that it will take some time for me to get past these fears, these tendencies. I'm not even sure if I'll manage to fully break through during my short stay in France. This could take years. But I've begun.
I've begun the slow process of unraveling myself and taking inventory of the knots. Here is one and I will call it hesitancy.
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