Friday, February 19, 2010

FIELD NOTE 2.45 - Words I cannot verbalize.

The word was amour but all I could manage to say was mort. The prof assured me that the two are not the same.
Aren't they?
I've always had a hard time expressing my feelings. Especially those dealing with love. "I love you" always seems to feel so awkward on the tip of my tongue. I don't know why this is.
Someone told me once that I am unaffectionate. Perhaps this was true, perhaps this is true. Why then do I suddenly find myself tacking on the words "I love and miss you" to almost every letter I write? Stranger still, the words seem to fit and don't feel the least bit strange flowing from my fingertips.
I never realized until very recently just how many people I love and in just how many different ways I love - from the I-miss-your-laughter love to the I-miss-our-two-hour-long-phonecalls-about-nothing love.
I just need you to know me, just know who I am. I cannot speak love, but I can write it.

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